There are some things in life that you simply cannot prepare yourself for. You think you can, but when the time comes, you see just how unprepared you really are. Motherhood is one of those things.
I was prepared in the sense that I had everything that she would need (except when I failed at breastfeeding!), it was the sheer amount of worry and anxiety that I wasn't prepared for.
I had no idea how hard motherhood would be. My 'support system' had told me bits and explained some things but motherhood as a whole is extremely hard and overwhelming.
I had no idea how hard motherhood would be. My 'support system' had told me bits and explained some things but motherhood as a whole is extremely hard and overwhelming.
I have days when I sit and cry while she is crying because I have done everything on my mental check list to make sure she is ok and she is still crying... I feel like I've failed.
My first 3 months with Mia have been such a rollercoaster.
She slept through the night from like 2 weeks old but now at 12 weeks has decided that is no longer for her! She hates napping, so sleep during the day isn't an option.
We have had 2 hospital trips in her 3 months because of a viral infection, she was kept in over night and every test done possible to ensure it was nothing nasty or serious. She was so brave and so good, funnily enough, she slept better in the hospital bed than in her own!
She loves smiling, talking and laughing. Her face is something I am absolutely besotted with, I stare at her for hours and am only just learning that it is ok to leave her alone to her own devices and let her sit and chill, she doesn't need me fussing over her all the time.
She is very tall/long and determine to sit up by herself (her head is still a little too heavy for her!), I cannot get over her strong and determine she actually is.
I already know that my daughter will be my best friend, I am trying my damn hardest to be the best mom I possibly can be and sometimes that is difficult and I need support but I have only just realised that asked for help isn't a sign of weakness, everyone needs time, space, independence.
This was just a quick update post on my little princess, I will be involving her in more posts in the future, as a first time mom I am learning so much as I go and will enjoy taking you on this journey with me!
Have a great day or night wherever you are.
Emm xx
We have had 2 hospital trips in her 3 months because of a viral infection, she was kept in over night and every test done possible to ensure it was nothing nasty or serious. She was so brave and so good, funnily enough, she slept better in the hospital bed than in her own!
She loves smiling, talking and laughing. Her face is something I am absolutely besotted with, I stare at her for hours and am only just learning that it is ok to leave her alone to her own devices and let her sit and chill, she doesn't need me fussing over her all the time.
She is very tall/long and determine to sit up by herself (her head is still a little too heavy for her!), I cannot get over her strong and determine she actually is.
I already know that my daughter will be my best friend, I am trying my damn hardest to be the best mom I possibly can be and sometimes that is difficult and I need support but I have only just realised that asked for help isn't a sign of weakness, everyone needs time, space, independence.
This was just a quick update post on my little princess, I will be involving her in more posts in the future, as a first time mom I am learning so much as I go and will enjoy taking you on this journey with me!
Have a great day or night wherever you are.
Emm xx
